Monday, May 2, 2011

i am Dominatrix?

hurm....i think i am pussycat
pussycat mean sorg yg always aim for win2 stuation
and always been bullied by dominatrix.
i think i am dat type of person.
but i'm not
then i think i selalu mengalah dengan orang
i kurang bercakap sebab nk jaga hati orang
mengalah..mengalah..and always mengalah..
even i fade up,
then i though i am doormat.

doormat someone yg kurang confident
mengalah2 dan asyik mengalah
sebab asyik fikir ttg ape yg org lain akan fikir ttg dye
takut nk wat ape2

sebab nk jaga hati org lain
itukah saya??no!i am not doormat
even i think dat i am

cause i am dominatrix
DOMINATRIX???!!
its mean seorang yg gila kuasa..
suka control.
berani bersuara
tak perdulikan orang lain sebab tak mahu orang lain
amik kesempatan terhadap diri..
its i am??
hurm....

bila i igt balik...moment yang penah berlaku in my life
yup.mungkin betul
i excited sgt kalau ada ape2 event
excited nk join
excited nk bg idea
excited in everything
i dun ever care what people think about me
i am too confident
that i can do everything
confident..i can control everything
i am confident person!!!
yess i am. i make a lot of frenz.
and happy all time.

but its mistake!!
people hate me.
with my attitude
then i tried change.
i scarifies evrygthing.
just to make people like me
i care wat people say.think about me.
and i'm tired,
I CANT BE OWN SELF!!!

now..
i STOP be what people want i am to be
i JUST BE MYSELF!
but..
its difficult
even now...i'm not be real me.
i'm not same person like 7 years before
and i wish i can be like that once more time.
and i have to build my real me again
I WILL TRY!!